Wednesday, October 7, 2009

I am going insane

Hey everyone,
I swear we haven't fallen off the face of the earth. Even though I feel like I have. So yeah this post is me venting.... so I am sorry to you all right now. But anyways so I am in the thick of things with nursing school. I am feeling a little bit (Heck completely) over whelmed. I have two test every week and then on top of that I also have to deal with passing off all the critical techniques. We are not allowed to fail any of these check offs. Which I can see why... would you want a nurse who can't draw your blood correctly. No pressure or anything...... Then I have a big exam dealing with dosage calculations that you have three times to pass (90% or above). Which means you can only miss two questions... no problem ... except I didn't get the math smarts in my family. Which I pray our children get the math smarts from Doug, cus I can't help them there.
O yeah did I mention I get really bad test anxiety too!!!

OK enough of my complaining... I have a lot to be happy about. I have to admit that last night I had a huge meltdown and called Doug on the phone and cried to him. He tried to calm me down and remind me I am smart and can handle this degree. While we were on the phone he suggested I get a blessing from our dear friend Tony. So I called Tony and with in seconds he was over there with another of our friends to give me a priesthood blessing. I am so honored that they could come and help me out. They are wonderful men in our ward. That blessing calmed my nerves and helped me realize that I am not alone and that the lord is with me every step of the way. So I feel so much better now and I know I can take on any challenge as long as I have the lord there with me.
OK I am done venting. I promise to put up pictures of our adventures in Sandpoint, ID as soon as I get done with these exams. Love you all and hope all is great in your neck of the woods.

5 comments:

Roxy said...

I hear you on the hectic part of that. I mean my schooling isn't 2 tests every week or anything just lots of busy work and projects. I am sad we didn't get to see you guys while you were up this way :(

YOU CAN DO IT!!!! Just hang in there and it will be worth it...right? That's what I am telling myself it's taking all I have to want to go back next semester, I just tell myself just 2 more semesters after this and I am done!! I can do it and if I can I KNOW YOU CAN!!!

Love you lady!

Shasta said...

Once you are done you will be a great nurse. You can do this!!! If you need help with any of the studying or the medical terminology let me know, I passed that class with an A. Keep your chin up babe.

Jade said...

AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH. We're learning first hand just how incredibly challenging nursing school is. If you ever need a nice venting session with someone who's as stressed out as you, CALL BEN. He's beyond overwhelmed himself and could use the empathy. HANG IN THERE.

Stephanie said...

Sorry that you are having a tough time. But you are going to be an awesome nurse. The kind that gives out cool band-aids and not just the boring ones.

Steph & Wade said...

Oh, hang in there babe! I feel for you. But I know you are going to be the best darn nurse there is. Much love!